I do believe in fate, that there is a reason behind every detail of our life. There is a consequence in every action. We make our own plot for our life story. Once you make a decision, no matter right or wrong, it leads you to something that you might regret or make you joyful instead. But unfortunately, make a choice is not easy as it’s said.
I was in intersection once. Back to 2010 when I had tons of dreams, idealist person, and fresh senior high school graduate. Since my first year, I always got a good score in economic. But sadly, I’m bad in mathematic. Realized that you have to deal with number in economy; simply I turn my career option from an accountant to a kindergarten teacher. Afraid that I would fail in Universitas Gadjah Mada entrance test, I applied to Children Preschool Pedagogic faculty in Universitas Negeri Yogyakarta. Surprisingly, I was accepted. Two days before, I recognized that I would be one of English Literature Department students in Universitas Gadjah Mada. One of my dreams, live in Yogyakarta, is checked. But, I knew that I could not take it both.
So here I am. Seeking what I’m going to be when I become a literature bachelor. No passion, no special skill, not so god damn good in English and literature, and be in the majority. Things that I want to avoid the most. Ironically, it’s my reality. Then, something crossed my mind. What if, back to two years ago, I choose UNY as my alumnus? Has everything been different? Is the doubtful will not come to me? Is my future will being clear?
Guess what, I already know the answer. It does not matter. I choose the path, I face it. I cannot turn back and just have to stop questioning. My mind and interest might be different from two years ago. No one can guarantee me that I might be a good kindergarten teacher.
The consequence of an action is absolute. So there, every road is just the same, if only you use my glasses.
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